A few days after the miscarriage, I took a much needed day off. It was the best thing that I've done in a long time.
It was a rare warm day for late October. My plan was to see where my heart would take me, camera in hand, and also throw in lunch with a friend and a relaxing massage in the afternoon.
The morning started off foggy. I took the opportunity to sit in a coffee shop and slowly sip a cup of tea - a rare treat when you've got a toddler.
Mid-morning, the fog lifted. And then everything, I mean EVERYTHING, just looked... beautiful to me.
I met up with my friend Alyson and her adorable little girl for lunch. After our original plans failed, we ended up at By The Way Cafe. Alyson told me the story of why she and her husband call this their "victory cafe" - after going through a really tough time moving to Toronto, the stars aligned one day and things settled. And they celebrated at this very same cafe.
It seemed a fitting sentiment for my day too. Things are going to get better.
My little angel must have been with me all day. Showing me how awesome our world is. Whispering to me, "Don't worry mommy... I can see it from here." And that thought warms my soul.
So when I'm feeling down, I look up, look around, and find beauty in something. I think that's what my baby would have wanted me to do.